Teadolphin

My Dreams

2009-04-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

Dreams manifests into a hope that pulls us onwards, toward a goal, toward continually existing, toward finding meaning in this thing called "life".

There was a dream that goes this way.

I would study hard, but just enough to get reasonable grades in school. Doesn't have to be the best grades because they don't hold any meaning later. Waste of time. Then get into well known University, do well and get a job even before graduation. Work hard, get comfortable. Get own car and own small pad. High class condo or apartment with state-of-the-art security, in-house facility and spacious safe parking. Have good friends, doesn't have to be many. We all know what "many friends" entail. The superficiality of it. However many contacts means differently. Have a few interesting high quality admirers. Sweet life of the singles.

After some time, probably meet The One. Have a high flying interesting ever passionate courtship. Small, intimate homey proposal yet filled with magnitude of meaning. SMALL but talk of the century wedding. A wedding that people will remember for its company and good food. Not meaningless things like decor, location, dresses, crowds and gossips. The honeymoon would be a simple getaway yet with the best luxuries available. Meaning don't have to go far, just a nice location nearby but having the best of the best such as bulter services, presidential suite, personal massuer, private jacuzzi and pool. Constant champagne, only the finest dark chocolates, and tons of lovely fresh flowers everyday.

Home sweet home would be a tiny small cottage, in Malaysia case, house i guess. Haha. Just something small and cute. Warm and homely. Huge cushion sofas should fill the hall, beanbags, plush toys and perhaps a couple of scented candles. Definitely decorative lamps, one or two. Then dining area would be normal. Kitchen however must be once again, state-of-the-art equipment and cabinets. It must have an island where I can do the work. All house toilets should be dry and pleasant smelling. It would have funky decors. Bedrooms would have different statements of culture. Exterior, would be a carpet grass garden with lotsa beautiful flowers around like spring time.

And the rest of life. Haha. My home sweet home dreams are a bit conflicting but I'll be getting there.

There's another dream that goes this way...

If only...

We lived in a world without money.. A world that thrives only on friendship, love and the well-being of its inhabitants and co-inhabitants.. A world that does not necessitate crime, hate, war, jealousy, rivalry and bitterness.. How would this be?

We would live in forests.. have our own tree homes, firewood... we would eat whatever the forest provides or even the sea or river.. We would no longer need jobs, so we could spend time hunting for food.. And when we're done, we could spend time with our families, or with nature or our pets.. A much more enriching way to live do you not agree? We could wear animal skins (only when they're dead, we do not kill for clothes) or we could look for cotton and weave fabric from there. We can tap rubber from rubber trees to make shoes and slippers.. When we're bored, we could always interact with others or create games from things around us... bask in the sunshine as much as we one... if we fall sick, there are always medicated plants around...

life is the way it is today because we made it so... it is actually made up of a lot of things that isnt necessary, that we could do without... things that are designed to give us more time so that we could spend more quality time with our families and friends.. not so that we could work for longer hours, earn more money and fight and compete with one another for unnecesary positions that will once again start the circle... higher position, work longer hours and earn more... yes... but spend more time with loved ones? but people tend to forget these.. once they have made something that can do a task in a much shorter time, they see the profit it brings in, then the greed starts, the marketing begins.. the innovation begins... all the name of having a better quality life... truly is that happening?

Day 1

2009-03-09T13:57:00.001+08:00

Woke up in the morning, and wondered if all that happened the night before was a dream. Was it really possible for a relationship such as ours to have been able to reach a decision where separation was necessary no matter how temporary? Did he really suggest that? It’s not surprising for me to have had agreed though, knowing how hard of a heart I can have. But still, is it true or have I not yet awaken?

I wanted to just call him and say, “Hey this is really silly, what are we fighting for? Let’s just apologise and go on our usual way of doing things”, then all the memories came flooding back. All the hurt, crushed expectations and pain that has brought us here today came back unbidden.

Then, I suppose this was truly necessary. How long should one go on expecting and waiting and expecting yet again? The circle has to be broken.

To err was not having control over my extreme emotions and possibly unreasonably high expectations. Perhaps it’s best that I carve my own road, in my own way, and in my own time. Without a doubt, there would be no one strong enough, willing enough to put up with my extreme emotions or intellectual enough to rein it in without causing further heartache.

Worse still, there is no one who could possibly measure up to my expectations in spite of me willing to give back on the same standards of expectations. No one who could understand the simplicity of what I want or need. It seems too complicated to the external viewers, who views only with their eyes and not their heart.

When there is one who could understand truly and intricately my desires, wants and needs,

When there is one who could find it in him to rein control within reason and space my emotions,

When there is one who could afford to put out the pillow of comfort and strength of reassurance,

When there is one such as that, who is willing to do all he could,

Then maybe, just maybe, I would for one last time, attempt the road many leap into claiming to be blind.

Maybe.

Christchurch, New Zealand

2008-10-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

Loving my new "office"... especially when the view outside is snow cap mountains !! :) not more boring buildings or jammed up roads... hehehe...

The cool thing about my new job is that you work really really really hard for 10 hours and then you are rewarded with a beautiful habitat and a holiday that you are paid to have! How cool is that man... say, if i was still in office, i'd have to work 10 years to get such a reward... ain't i right there matey? and even that, i have to be the one to pay for it...hehehe...sorry, jz had to rub it in...

Moving on, after work, make up off and hair down, sleep needs chucked in the drawer for the moment...wrap self like a newborn baby, layers and layers of clothing and out into the ccold i went with my other bird friends... hunt for food first.. so we landed in Drexels for some breakfast style lunch.. rounda chitters then off for sightseeing... the shops are not so interesting for me.. boorringg.. next... took pictures and walkaround the famous chirstchurch cathedral square...walked along Avon river... so beautiful u'll never believe it! when i resize my pictures, i might put it up.. its exactly like my story books! all in real life now.. sigh.. so beautiful.. there were ducks swimming, people punting (someone rowing a gondola boat for you) and i can see the base of the river so clearly!! oh yes, there was also a huge sperm in the sqaure!! hahahaha... art week in CHC...

after that, had dinner... then more walking around, and went to supermarket.. everything cheap cheap... ok jk... the chocolates are the cheap dirt!!! buy again... (previously in adelaide bought tons of chocolate already!)..bought some sauces, of which i tried one just now for dinner - cheese and onion herbs.. blown away... nyam nyam...

after that, finally get to sleep.. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP.. then up early for tour.. found out no such tour anymore.. haha.. so we modified and created our own tour..

first stop - antartica.. this is actually the USA research centre on Antartica.. its something like a science research centre but they have stuff for visitors, a total replica of life in antartica... first thing we did is went to see the penguins feeding... so nice.. but darn smelly...then went into the antartica STORM!! hehehe... its a snow room where they replicate the temperature in antartica and had a snowstorm!! damn cooollldd.. i was already wrapped like a baby, then on top of that i added another winter coat that they lent us! it was still cold despite TWO winter coats!! crazy... hehehehe.. it was -15 degrees.. the worse in has gone to (in Antartica itself) is -89 degrees... giler giler...

next, the hagglund ride... foo fantastic! couldnt help screaming my head off tho.. oopss.. hehehhe..its a snow vehicle that they use in snow areas.. the tyres are wrapped in chains...so they took us up and down not one, but a few high hills.. and this thing had like 3 "cabins" and i was in the last one, can u jz imagine the impact.. first we're climbing up slowly.. slowly.. and pow! u lose ur breath as they go down hill!! hahaha.. its meant to replicate the ice/snow hills that the workers in antartica have to plough through.... then ... if they cannot get up the hill, they go around it! so that means that the vehicle is tilted right up to 35degrees and ur in it!! scary... see pity this people.. be glad ur sitting in a boring office! just on flat ground! hahaha..jk!

then... myself and another fren bought backstage passes specially to see my darling penguins and learn more ( u know me, anywhere i go, animals come first! hehehe).. so we went to see penguins, and i fed one and touch... ok lah... quite dry and oily very cute...my own one on my bed,more soft.. hahaha..but it was a lovely experience nonetheless..

after that to gondola (the cable car gondola, dunno why they love to use this word)... foo foo foo.. .this one no words or pictures can describe already! u need to see it to know it! the view.. magnificent!! beauuuuttiifull... sheeps on the mountains grazing, ocean as blue as the sky... weeather cold and crisp... grass jz tempting you to lie on it.. wow! so we birds hung out and took tons of pictures needless to say.. a lot of potential models.. hehehe..

then back down to the foot of the hill to Lyttelton.. for some fish and chips... its a beautiful small quiet town.. something like south of Switzerland to those who have been there.. the part with PWC in it.. haha.. sorry forgot the name at the moment.. then back to habitat to hibernate...finally get some chance to watch a bit of tv but not much coz another early morning next day...

So next day, went to art market, something like Msia flea market.. much nicer of course...ate bratwurst and dropped all my onions as i walk along.. so i had an onion trail behind me... hahaha..its so huge the whole thing, can't help it.. hehehe...sshhh... saw some beautiful paintings, but very expensive... really wanted to get it tho, coz i was speaking to the artist and they're so passionate of their work.. sigh.. spent too much money earlier.. too bad...

stumbled across a beautiful beautiful fantastic park!! and this is where i discovered what life is all about!! its just so relaxed and beautiful... beds and beds of beautifully defined flowers.. the trees were so nice they look fake.. the oak and all were really brown..and then you see families strolling along, parents taking their kids out to play or for a walk.. teenagers and some working adults just strolling along, enjoying the air and taking their time.. this was saturday, where most Msians and Singaporeans would be hard at work still!! haha.. but really, it was very touching.. the Avon river also flows through the park, and once again it was so beautiful... you see people canoeing, parents and children and couples.. the elderly were just sitting around and walking around holding hands.. there were so many ducks in the river, mandarin ducks, brown ones and black ones... and guess what!! there were also ducklings!!! hehehe... couldnt touch coz scared i fall in.. heheh..

and then i also saw a hospital bed by the river with someone in it.. i was like wha..? and then i discovered that the hospital was jz next to this blessed heaven.. and i knew life here was so worth it! they care so much for the man that they let him lie there in the park.. he's definitely going to recover! :) if only there were more medical professionals who does it that way.. but i know there are always other factors involved...

so in all in all, the big picture, wow! won't you agree with me that is what life is all about? its about enjoying nature with your loved ones..taking a break every now and then and not be a workaholic...work is not everything and neither is money... the quality of the essence of life is simply that! i am so glad i didn't spend all my time studying hard! so glad that i lived by the principle "balance"... :) tho more heavy on playing as usual.. hehehe

if i could, i would love to spend my whole day there, but there were prior arrangements.. so reluctantly another bird and i pulled ourselves away from the park and went back to the habitat.. only to get into a beautiful champagne peach toyota camry :) lovely combination of my fav colors :) and off we went to Kaikoura - 2H 30M journey from CHC... went there, supposedly to whale watch.. but didnt... just went to where the ocean ends and saw fat fat seals..at that moment in time, i truly wanted to be a fat lazy brown seal... when i saw it, it just yawn and snorted, and turned another way to continue sleeping in the sun.. wow.. if only i could do that all day long.. food and habitat is no worry.. how nice to be a seal... shit... why am i not one...

then had seafood along the roadside...ok let me backtrack a little... we originally wanted to go and visit Mt Edoras (Lord of the Rings mountains) where they actually did their filming... the real name is Mt Potts...but we didnt, and in the end we were quite glad we didnt coz it was v expensive and we got the same deal anyway :) while driving to Kaikoura, WOW WOW! MILES AND MILES OF ROLLING HILLS... SNOW CAP MOUNTAINS IN THE DISTANCE... it was breathtaking!! breathtaking i say!! i initially also wanted to go to sheep farm (yes animals again, hehe in fact was hunting for kiwis!) so but glad i didnt go too, there were simply millions of cute furry and also sheared sheeps along the way... there were also horses, cows of all colours... it was wonderful! we stopped at a vineyard, on your left is the vast beautiful sea whereby you can spot whales on good days, and immediately when you turn right, first you see a vineyard, green and brown in color, and direct staring you in the face is another snowcap mountain! how great is that man! u've got to be there to understand the enormosity of the scenery.. wonderful!

after that, we wanted to go to Akaroa ( been dying to go here since day 1) but halfway we turned back because it was simply too late into the night... guess it wasnt meant to be ;(... on the other hand, something has to be kept for another time right.. hehehe...

so that was it folks! a beautiful trip... one thing that really amazes me (aside from the life and scenic views) is that when go on job, everyone was a stranger, and yet we managed to have such a good time with each other and return as friends... life is amazing in its own ways isnt it? :)

Next stop, Johannesburg, will try my best not to spend too much money there... just one visit to the lions den to carry baby lions and then back to habitat to sleep... i hope.. hehehhee *fingers crossed.. yes animals again... can't live without them...hehehe...

Aloha from Singapura!

2008-07-13T18:26:00.002+08:00

Today is Sunday.. Am suppose to be spending time with my teddy bear... Holding hands, walking around... Hanging out... But nooo... instead we're miles apart and I'm planted in a shopping mall surfing the net all day... hmmMMmmm.... Well at least they have free wireless access... I even stumbled across a community library in the shopping complex which you can just walk in and read or surf (with your own laptop).. so cool right?! Unlike the one back home, "only members" are allowed to go in... Then they shouldn't be called "community"...

Ok so have somewhat settled down in Singapore..Am totally not allowed to blog about the company am working for or anything to do with it.. So sorry, no info on that... Other than that I will update on my personal experience non - related to the company.. go figure! hahaha..

I've just only moved in my own place yesterday and goodness gracious! The place is sooo dirty!!! eeekkk... 2 maids cleaning for 6 hours still couldnt finish it!! They were sppose to just clean like normal, but it ended up being spring cleaned due to its dirtiness!! Sticky kitchen and dusty rooms.. Says a lot about the previous owners.. Sigh... Other than that I have a lovely lavender colored room...In the process of cosy-fying it.. Bought bed... Need to get a clothes rack.. So reluctant to get all this!! Coz when i move out, then what happens to all these?! Gee.. and the rent is sky high!!

Am staying with 3 other colleagues, its a big 4-room HDB flat..not too bad, quite spacious... but con-job lah.. could have been much cheaper but due to green leaves like us, it wasnt... oh well...

Still hunting for a church here...

A lot to learn living on my own... and living with 3 other girls... different cultures and upbringings to adapt too.. hmm hmm....

OK then.. toodles...

A Harder Adjustment

2008-07-04T16:22:00.002+08:00

Hey, wow been a long time!! Yes i know i know... i did say i'll update this blog before i leave for Singapore, but i just didn't have time what with the packing and last minute meet ups and all! So i was jz about to go offline again, but i tot, heck why not jz do a short update blog! Wouldn't hurt right? Hehehe... Maybe the thing with me is i always want to make sure my blog is in chronological order etc etc, so u know, when it all piles up, then u dun feel like doing it... heheheh...

So here goes, as most of you know would know, i have had a major change of profession... Still coping and trying to survive here in Singapore... just only heard some very very scary stories... so really just wanna go back and forget it... hehehe...as if that's possible...

I am not sure what to say and how to say.. there are some restrictions etc... let me figure things out first... just trying to settle down, survive this adjustment period.. sigh...

OK then... tooddles..

Shy - ness laa...

2007-11-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hello Peeps or Spideys... whichever is my everlasting blog-fan! Ha ha..

SHy ness la ... really shy ness.. this is worse than that peekaboo time!! i Dont think i want to tell u why.. *red faceeee...

Ok oK.. i Will tell LA... bug ofF... so this time i KNOW how i am SUPPOSE to log in... so first, get to blog page la right to see it... THEN.. i typed www... ooppsss.. ok backspace... retyped - teadolphin.blogspot.com... page NOT FOUND! crappe!... looked at the address again.. correct wert!... nvm... retyped...cannot... FINE... tried teamokey.blogspot.com... looked at the blogs... 'theory applied to gaming script,lisp, java..'!! What SHIT MAN! not mine.. confirm!! ciao ciao...

THEN ... i had to resort to this... :( Don't LAUGH OK! i went to baybeetea's blog... because that's the only one i remember by heart... yes SUE.. be HAPPY and JUMP for JOY! hehehee... then .. thankfully, good friend means good friend forever la, she still kept me on main page altho i havent blog for AGES!! hehe thanx dear darlingest bbtea! :) so then PHEW... i saw the old familiar pages of the windows to my soul.... geee...

tak puas hati.. BECAUSE the add is EXACTLY the SAME as i typed earlier!! i double checked!! no difference at all!! in spelling or whatsoever!! crappo pig!! sigh.. anyway here i am... at familiar pages just like old time.. except... I AM LIBERATED!!! WOO HOO!!! YEA YEA YEA!!!!

no no.. i havent gone crazy.. still sane and in love with the same ol same ol person :) i finally finished ALL MY EXAMS!!! for LIFE!!! okok... *clause - if i have passed all my papers this semester, then statement shall be valid! :) yes now i am at the brink of graduation, verdict on Nov 30, but knowing Monash, it could be a day earlier... hopefully! ;)

so after my final paper on wednesday afternoon, at approximately 4.50pm i was liberated from the examination hall, and in less than 5 minutes, a friend came up to me and said 'you are no longer a monashian! get out!'.. HAHAHA...i walked slowly down the staircase, digesting it all in..walking out the same pathway i've been so familiar with for the last 3 - 4 months... thinking, when is the next time i might grace this beautiful walkway... paid parking, and walk thru that memorable bridge where sometimes the dog will walk me in or out...where the rain floods it and wets my hundred over dollar hush puppy shoe... drive out of the parking lot which i may never need to park in anymore...*sniff...
yeah right!! hahahaha!!! okok enuf nostalgic ness..

went to see my baby at his workshop of course.. stole him away from his customers for a moment of celebration! finally get to see him after two full days of not seeing him! (yes as time goes by, i become more spoilt, need to see everyday) then...drove home...got caught in the jam for ONE HOUR! and my dad tot i went to 'ronda ronda' as he puts it... hahaa...then went to dinner.. had a really nice mee bandung at santai, ttdi.. then went home, straight to the sofa with mommy and daddy and stoned in front of tv till 2am!!! muaahaahaa... daddy's fault! the night before when i was studying in the dining area (now work area), dad and mom was watching this super cool chinese drama show and i got caught up!! hehehehe so together we finished the series! i got a bloody splitting headache after that!! its like drinking 10 bottles of beer or sumting alcoholically strong and then having the worst headache life can possibly deal u with!! even a straight watch of all 20 + episodes of watching desperate housewives don't do that to u! hahaha.. maybe its because i was trying very to hard to understand the chinese!! keke... ssssshhhh...

moving on.. the next day, which is sort of today is deepavali!! yay!! get to spend time with darling without the thought of exams or have to go home to study etC!! liberation reiterated!.. so morning i went to learn italian from su - not bad!! :) she taught well and i learnt fast, right su? grazie su! :) then home to DYNOMITE!! hehehe... thank God for this game on yahoo man!! it helped me release all the tension and stress during the examination period! and of course Praise God for carrying me throughout that difficult time and to all my friends and of coz darling, for rallying in prayer for me and being RIGHT THERE for me!! you guys are great!! thanx!!

ok i diversed so much... after dynomiting and mcdonalding (another game a cousin sent to me - very addictive and business-ish), parents and sis bro finally came home to give me food.. was starving by then... then ate then back to mcdonalding... then finally baby woke up and said he's coming to see me!! wooohooo yay!!!

so then we went to genting highlands... contrary to general belief, it wasnt jam at all! smooth drive but was very difficult to find parking!! so FULL!! then we parked, and i asked him to disconnect some point from the bonnet area so that if ppl steal his car then they wouldnt be able to drive it away*.. it is a very dangerous place**..then we went in... wow the air is so fresh and nice!! soo ccccoollddd summore!! i sppose due to the rainy season :).. took some pictures.. which i may or may not upload... went to CASINO!!! hehehe.. but did not get to go to the main one! SIGH... walk around.. shop.. bought diesel jeans at 50% OFF! hehehe...pak toh, hold hands...eat peppermint ice-cream... then it was time to go off...

went to gohtong jaya for dinner...wanted to eat their famous black pepper venison!! when we got to the shop, they said venison today not nice.. very very hard... then sad.. so they recommend same style but pork!! so i said YES YES YES OK... darling looked a bit green... he dont like pork whereas i LOVE pork..at our wedding i got him to AGREE to have roasted pork!!! hahahaha.. with the full head etc ;) anyway... so dinner was good..
then we had a quiet peaceful drive down, enjoying the fresh cool air...it was just so nice and beautiful.. sighh... :)

then we went to catch a movie and jz spend time with each other....another romantic interlude to the day, without the thought of having to cut it shot because i have to study.. ahem... hehehe...

then ANTI CLIMAX!!
remember the part where i asked him to disconnect some stuff from the bonnet area? *
then we or rather me, stupidly forgot about it!!! because the car managed to start and jalan, so we jz didnt think of it... until so we drove the car down Genting to KL in that condition and BOOM!! petrol error light came out when petrol was FULL TANK!! then suddenly he remembered!! he HADNT RE-CONNECTED the thing he pulled out!!! that could have spoiled the engine, and most likely it did because it was a fuel pump. Ok i am not car expert, but according to him, the damage estimated - RM10000!! jz for forgetting ONE SMALL THING!! sigh.. oh well i am praying hard that by some miracle that there is a cheaper alternative to that!! sigh sometimes being to safe is not good!!

diverse for a while - another unrelated eg of that.. when i got home to shower, boy was i bloody pisseeeeddd offf!!!! someone ANNOYINGLY turned off the water pressure switch and it was so bad so much so there was almost no water to bathe in!!! this is one of the few things that really tick me off!!! it was installed for a reason.. whats with the swtiching it on and off?? the last time this happened, it was my mom (at least according to my dad) who switched it off.. and for what reason? TO BE SAFE... jz dun wan so many electricity points on, maybe got lightning etc... SIGH.. pissing off.... but u get my point right?

sigh dun be cautious cannot.. be cautious then incur unnecessary consequences... stupid... sigh...

ok back to issue at hand.. now that the first* is explained.. remember that i said that the place was dangerous?**
on our way back to the car, we saw this guy on a motorbike stopping at each and every car that he thinks isnt locked!!! he LOOKS like a guard, but clearly he isnt.. he just goes from car to car to open it... SCARY!! and then at then at exit got police (everywhere exit in genting seems to have police), we stupidly forgot to mentioned it to them!! but anyway bear in mind la when parking at first world hotel free parking lot.. that was why i asked josh to disconnect the cable.. stupid or wise move? proven stupid!

okay.. so that's my update for now! got more... but maybe in the next blog!! hehehe
tatabies

Peekaboo!

2007-08-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

Okay was just wondering into my blog with some spare time i've had to spend for once!
And guess what! It took me a gazillion tries to log in! hahahahaha!!

I thought it was password problem, then i figured maybe its the user name problem... because i've a diff name for almost everything.. then i opened my eyes a little wider, and its says log in with your google account! What the..!

Haha so here i am.. Just testing... Guess it works...
Dust and Cobwebs everywhere...
Well perhaps, i'll do something about it after my Audit assignment tomorrow! CYA~ spideysss..

Couple/Enggagement/Marriage

2007-01-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

ok questions questions.. please do tell me if you know..

what's the difference essentially between being a couple, getting enggage and getting married? - this excludes the commitment factor because we are assuming that it is already factored in.

couple and getting enggage

as a couple, u hold hands and kiss.. and share everything..

enggage - same thing isnt it? its not that you can already jump into bed with each other. and dun tell me this is a trial period.. even if it is, what was wrong with trying as a couple?? the promises u make then and when ur enggage holds the same level of fulfillment isnt it?

married... aside from being able to stay together and sleep together, how does it essentially affect the relationship between the two lovers??

ok maybe i am being dumb... but at least i can't see a clear diff between couple and getting enggage...

Relationships between homosapiens..

2007-01-22T14:24:00.000+08:00

yes i think i am on a blogging craze.. for now.. haha

this morning on my way to work, i took the lrt & mrt because had to return to office (but ended up back at client's place again coz manager orders..haha), i came across an anoying person.. maybe two.. i managed to get a seat on lrt today.. but wasnt so lucky with mrt because no energy to be kiasu today.. so i was standing in the mrt holding on to the bar.. and then this old man wanted to get out and i was kinda blocking him with my hand, so i release my hand.. then he said 'excuse me' again.. i was like 'ok ur so fat meh'.. so i moved a little.. then he 'excuse me' again.. i'm was like 'wat the hell'..so i inched again.. then he beat my laptop! the stupid sucker.. shud have threatened to sue! then only i realised that his wife wanted to come from the other side of me.. she could have said 'excuse me' right? stupid ppl.. but they are old and senile.. so its ok.. also they're citizens of the rude land.. then when i let her pass, she still had to hold on/push me.. i was like gee man.. jz how fat are u?! (she was not all that big)... wow.. i had the darkest thoughts of them for a while.. then i prayed about it.. then i was pretty much ok..

in fact now looking back at it, it was quite loving of that man to get ppl to make way for his wife.. this is looking from the wife's point of view lah..

i realised that sometimes we can really hurt the people we love the most in the worse way possible as compared to us hurting someone who we're not that close to. i suppose proximity is one of the reason to validate the oppurtunity to do so. sometimes mice and i can really fight until we both end up in tears, but i know in my heart that nothing would happen to us. i know at the end of it, we would make up and be loving again. how great this assurance is! i hope everyone out there has something like this.

when it comes to family, i now am staying with an aunty which i was not ever that close to before this.. and yet, she treats me so well.. what i like to eat, she will find out and then she will cook... often if possible.. and she always cut fruits for me.. sometimes we jz talk about stuff.. its amazing the quantum of love she showers upon me given the history (neutral history)..

my brother has annoyed me to no end before.. he can really test my patience.. and its the same for me.. i can make him really upset too.. yet he still buy things for me and thinks of me... and me on the other hand will take him out for movies and drink with my friends or mice...

am not very sure of what i am trying to convey, but relationships are always full of all these.. the ups and downs.. but essentially the love for one another is always there.. and that love always helps to overcome the bad times of misscommunication and understanding.. or perhaps even the absence of the other...

and the part where we hurt the ones we love more then we hurt others.. i guess the logic is because we love the other person so much, and when ur angry u unconciously strike back to the same level of love, but with anger.. which should explain why we dun really hurt others whom with are not that close too with the same level of verocity.. but this is not a sound theory.. i can argue it away.. haha.. but for now, we'll go with it...

*Toshibaa..

2007-01-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

remember the * in my chocolate mice blog? well this blog is about it :)

i bought a new laptop!! hehehe thanx to daddy! my old laptop u know the fat and bulky one i always carry to uni.. it kinda konked out on me.. sumtimes the keyboard can't work, can't turn the comp on etc.. so decided needed a new laptop because if repair, quite pointless (this what we all say right? haha) because it is about 5 years old already...
i'll tell u a weird secret... when was in process of confirming the new laptop, the dear old laptop can suddenly work! haha.. ssshhhhh....

okok.. so off with the suspense, me bought a Toshiba M500 1024E! hehe... its 12", freaking light - 1.86kg, has fingerprint security, 1GB RAM, 100 GB HDD, HDD protector (so if u drop laptop, data safe), titanium silver and very cute.. hahah oh right! it has the latest processor - core2duo! and this laptop itself is brand new, some shops dun even have it yet (i checked!) and some websites dun even have the price! hehehe.. those that have the price, it starts from $2799!(exhange rate - 2.27) and in msia, mice friend bought something like this spec for RM5999. and guess how much i had to pay for it (excluding gst and upgrade).. only.... *drum roll... $1999! hehehe... full and final price... *drum roll 2... $2178.95!.. hehe.. okok i know dad doesnt like the drum roll coz its burning his pocket.. but hey.. good deal hah! hehehehe...

know why?.. because.. dealing straight with toshiba! hehehe.. i was already pretty set on buying another toshiba laptop which was $1900 from simlim(its like our low yat).. but sumhow on instinct, i felt like calling toshiba just to be kiasu.. to see if they had a better offer... i know its not logical but jz felt 'moved' to do that.. and i did... so they transferred me to this lady (who i assumed is a sales person) and i asked her for that model etc.. then she talked to her boss etc, came up with the latest laptop only with and addition of $100. the original laptop i wanted does not have the latest processor, XP Pro, and is already 'old' in comp terms.. it was last year's product.. so damn freaking good deal lo... oh and it only has 1 year international warranty, whereas this latest one has 3 years international warranty!

SO i agreed to the arrangement between toshiba and myself.. and when i went to buy, guess who the lady really was? senior accountant of toshiba leh! imagine my shock! all along i tot i was dealing with a salesperson.. and nobody tell her who i am ok! hahaha... then suddenly it also made sense as to why she could do what she did to give me such a deal... bwahahaha.. blindedness.... anyway she was nice lah.. but not overly friendly, and being with accountants day and night, she's the first one that i see sooo heavily made up.. and its quite pretty :)

oh well.. ok so brought the laptop back lah.. but can't bring to office yet because i got no microsoft office.. shall be lending from a colleague tmr..then hopefully can start bonding with my toshy :)
thanx for the comp dad!

my dear old compaq, you will still serve me best when it comes to movies.. worry not as i shall still keep you..hehe

Sweetest Chocolate Mice..

2007-01-22T13:26:00.000+08:00

Chocola.. wha..? Chocolate mice... my baby :) His nickname.. why? because he stole some chocolates that is suppose to be for his parents! hehehe... and also because he loveessss chocolates... MY chocolate micee.. hehe

He was so so so darn sweet... you know why? because.. he drove ALL THE WAY to singapore just to be with me for a day! He left all his work back home just to see me.. :) I mean the focus here was that it was a day trip! Because he did drive all the way to singapore just to drop me off the other time and then drove home... anyone wanna beat that? ;)

He arrived close to noon... and i was watching by the window to spot his car when he first turns in the area.. and spotted! i quickly wore my roman sandals, grab all necesary items and went down as quickly as possible.. then at last! can hug my mice and kiss him! nyammy.. hehe...

Then we drove away from there and went to.... ok we did not know where to go and ended up arguing.. so sad.. but we made up... we had lunch at jack's place, great world city... not too bad, but i like sunway pyramid one better coz they have nyammy thai fish.. after that we attempted to find orchard, but ended up at sim lim tower, bugis village first...

So i got him a phone car charger which he has wanted for sometime and we got his aunty a usb modem.. i showed him the laptop model* that i jz bought the day before :) then it was pouring like mad outside.. and this time i was not agonized.. because we both had to share an umbrella under which i get to hold him as tight as i like and walk under the rain =)

After sim lim, we went to Orchard road.. after rounding a gazzillion rounds.. me reading the map and he asking turn where and giving me continuous update on what road we're on.. hahaha.. guess what?! he doesnt know how to read a map! kekeke.... the author of 'women can't read maps...' should 'sau tong' lah! bwahahaha..

We found orchard.. got some parking tix and walked around to look for warner bros ( i was thinking since when spore so cool?) .. when we found it, it was shaw house! hahaha... anyway we had fast food.. and reasonable dinner conversation.. after that we went for a lovely after-dinner drink at mc cafe which belongs to mcdonalds!.. and then we went of to kallang to get some tyres for his race stuff (yes he's planning on racing again..)..after that it was really late, so he drop me home and begun the journey home.. it was wonderful! :)

thanx so much baby! ur the best! :)

boreeng crappe

2007-01-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

Finally the internet connection is working again.. this time amazingly well.. therefore i am able to blog.. hehe...

Work hasn't been too bad lately... in fact pretty relaxing so far compared to the other interns.. this week, the client we we're auditing were very very nice.. they took us out to lunches and they even help us find files.. how nice... dream client they are called.. and everyday get to take cab to office... you jz wouldnt believe how safe the cabs are over here compared to Malaysia... I even dare take it alone! haha..

However on the last day i had to take mrt back (my usual means of transport) and man i came back black face.. why? coz singaporeans are outright RUDE! Freaking kiasu arses! They (S'poreans) even talk about themselves being rude in newspapers and magazines... i'm very inclined to put them down, but fairly i can understand why... its such a small space with a gazillion people.. so u do the math... dun forget to include end-of-the-day stress and peak hours...

ok no mood to blog ad.. later alligators...

Singapore 1st..

2006-12-23T14:26:00.000+08:00

Okay i give up trying to do this chronologically... I shall first update regard things in spore okay.. swak... i'll do this when am back home.. dun worry the memory is still fresh in mind.. it will always be, after all it is shared with the love of my life.. ;) how can i possibly forget the happiness, sweetness and emoness that we shared ... =) baby i miss u.. but anyway... let's get started before i change my mind and go to sleep.. haha...

ok.. where do i begin... daddy dropped me off in spore 2nd weekend in dec.. bummed home for a week.. dad's idea was good.. i really did benefit from that week when i started.. meaning i was familiar with things around me and thus able to catch things slightly faster than peers when it came to geographical survival as well as eating at certain places.. heh heh.. basically i am jz more sure of myself, otherwise i'd be wobbly.. u know how it is lah when ur in a diff country.. rite?.. heh heh..

ok so went to briefing by CPA AUssie at Cuppage Road (near Orchard for those shopaholics to understand where it is ;p).. not bad.. was very intimidated at first because everyone seems so smart and ready to go.. i on the otherhand was so relaxed.. haha.. and there were lots lots international ppl.. later we were told we are called the i'tnal batch.. ooOOOOoooo.. that explains it.. haha.. everyone was from a uni in aussie.. myself and another girl were the only ones from uni msia and uni spore (respectively).. gee... hehe.. altho most were from a uni in aussie, they were still very diversed... there are some from msia (none from kl), hong kong, china, ori aussie and err welsh? as well as india.. these ppl all quite high profile leh! but personal stuff shant be revealed here.. after all ey (ernst & young spore) has drilled it in us - confidentiality! bwahahahha... ooppss..

monday morning - first day of traning.. reached one hour early.. not that i am so eager, cousin dropped me off early.. so wat the heck lah.. camped at burger king (most ppl do this here).. no need to pay jz sit.. i shall tell u a secret, one morning was bloody tired, went to burger king and slept.. haha. almost late for work! ;) shhh..
training wasnt too bad... keep in mind its first day.. so we built lego cars and drew stuff.. we learnt... errr... sumting to do with audit lah... unrecorded liability i think...wat the heck lah...

then second day training... less play more audit crappe... getting tougher.. but hey we got released early! so went shopping.. BIGGEST MISTAKE!!! in my beeyootiful high heels, prav,me, and annie (other interns on the same programee) decided to explore.. so we took the mrt down to city link which is linked to two/three other malls (there are malls EVERYWHERE in spore! sick!).. tell abt the trip in a seperate blog... it was a big mistake because was so damn tired (every morning up abt 6am!) but we all still walked around etc.. next day (third day of training)...

u dun wanna know.. i was feeling like shit.. like no control over my body.. my back hurt, my tummy felt crappy.. and i spent the whole day vomitting at the office!! :( not fun at all... sigh.. my new frens were pretty supportive tho! really surprised coz if u dunno sumone well, who says ur going to get that treatment like u were good frens.. so lucky me for a while :) got better already.. but since that day, i cut off ALL social activites after work! no more !! no no no!!! regret!! nvr wanna go thru that again...

yes i know today is sat, not a work day.. but i still cut social stuff.. jz not in the mood.. enuf of going out ad... sighh..soo tired even thinking abt it....gee...

so on 3rd day we learnt.. cash and fixed asset audit.. very very very stressing... it really turned me off! feel like i dun wanna do audit ever... i need a fast track lane outta this field!! i want my animals!!! ;(
fine... i'll give it another week ... *black face..

thursday, first day of really working... but guess wat.. haha i spent all day in the pantry... jz chatting and reading magazines and newspapers.. hehe... my senior was out at clients and i can't get her wat she wants because my pass got no barcode.. when she came back, i din have my laptop.. so she said, ok lah got chat with ur friends... later time ad u can go home! i was whopie!! hehehe.. i mean after that three crazy training days, i was glad and appreciative of a 'day off'.. really needed it.. if u ask me to audit anything at all that day, i will vomit again.. and this time it might jz be vomit blood... i can't.. its jz horrible...eeeeekkksss

friday halfday off... coz christmas and they had some technical update (u know the one accountants to go).. i went... bored to death... but food was good... hehe breakfast was dim sum, porridge, paste pao and spring rolls.. got cakes also... haha after that went to hunt for bus tix back to msia.. sigh.. tough round but successful.. baby said he could pick me but i tot maybe this isnt the time... might get him to drop me back to spore tho... baby u wanted to right?? hehehe... ;p

well overall that's about it... the thing i can't tolerate most about all this (aside from what i ad complained) is waking up at 6am! that is officially an ungodly hour!!! geez.. i jz can't function.. feel like crappe every morning...
and its not that i am being lazy.. if u will, pls recall my last 11 yrs in school having to wake up at 6am+... have u ever seen me smiling or functioning properly?.. nothing until after 10 am isn it!.. sigh.. it amazes me how everyone here in spore can wake up at 6 sumting and still function... i am honestly not being lazy.. its jz me.. i dunno why.. if u know... do enlighten me... sux.. i NEED to find a job that allows me to wake up abit later.. even 7am, i'll stop complaning! its jz 6...oh man.. no waking up before the sun lah! (doesnt apply to japan! hahahah)..

ok so that's abt it for now.. pics and shopping stories up next i hope... hahaha...

toodles~

where.. how?

2006-12-14T14:18:00.000+08:00

i'm back! hehe no not to malaysia but on my dusty blog.. *fooh fooh aaachhieewwww.. oopss been away too long.. so where to start? how to put it? haha

perhaps i will begin by putting up some kuantan pictures (2nd trip)..
the following pics are from the bukit ubi temple.. mainly about fishes and scenery..

these fishes are found.. away from the aggressive catfishes of course.. but still very fat.. heh heh.. very beautiful hor! ;)

this is her sis... known as baby at home.. very cute! ;)

this is vice pres, XY.. nope there's no 'z'.. heh heh.. she's the one who i hopped on the bus with spontaneously.. ;)

this is at bukit ubi temple.. very scenic area and the catfishes here! they are the true definition of scary and fat!

Crazy dingbat me..

2006-11-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

ok... i did this super crazy thing... but am glad i did it.. hehe..

yesterday i had meeting downtown with my vice press (XY) and was sppose to drop her off at the bus station after the meeting... guess what i ended up hopping impulsively on the bus with her...

so here i am in kuatan again within the week.. hahaha... well it feels good to be able to do what i always wanted to do... during the semester, whenever i am driving on the road and the sky is blue and the sun shining hotly above, i'd always wish that i was on the highway travelling.. well decided that day that i would take the oppurtunity to make it a reality.. after all i am on hols.. if i can't do a crazy impulsive thingy, when then can i do it? when i start working? hahahahah...

Random stuff

2006-11-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

So many many things happened.. dunno what or which to blog about also.. hence right now am jz going to blog abt the ones that have pictures.. hehehe..

This the yoyo monkey has decided to fatten up to be a mini santa claus this year! Had steamboat at COCA with family, bro and i decided to check out the Home Centre.. and there's your santa chan! hehehe ;)

Chocolate! Yummy! Jealous yet all you chocolate lovers out there? ;) This is one of my
1st Anniversary (19/11/06) with my darling present! Custom-made and only found in Genting Highlands - where we spent the afternoon. We then had dinner at Pizza Uno(YUMMY) and watched Casino Royale (good show, bad ending unless there is CR 2).
I still haven't got the heart to cut the chocolate and eat it! Hopefully darling can come over and do it with me! He was so sweet! ;) Wanted to take me to to Vintry, but no time.. Yikes..
Love you sweetie and looking forward to 80 years more! Muaks..

I spent some time updating my 'wall of love & memories'.. can u spot your card? haha..These are cards from friends, boyfriend over two years.. Most are birthdays, some are 'thinking of you' and 'get well soon' cards.. so touching to read them again..
Thank you to all my friends and special people who have decorated my life and making it special just by being in it! Thanx for being there and remembering me on special occasions and of course, normal occassions.. hugs!Most importantly, i truly appreciate the sincerely expressed thoughts.. nice to know what you think, good or bad ;)

Cooking?Me?Sucess?Yes!

2006-11-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

aha! i've finally got my lazy bum off the sofa and decided to cook! after envisioning the recipe for an hour in my head...

firstly i looked around the kitchen.. the stuff i needed for complete meal or even a dish were non.. and then suddenly wa lah! i knew what to do with that dory fishes i saw! hence the birth of a new recipe :

Lynn's Eggcheez Dory Fish

Ingredients:
Dory fish (duh)
Eggs
Cheese (the shredded ones preferred)
Pepper
Cooking oil (a little only just to glaze the pan)

1. Defrost dory fish. If not soft after few hours, defrost in microwave but careful not to cook it. Haha..

2. Create batter while waiting aimlessly for fish to defrost. Break 2 eggs in a bowl, add pepper and stir. Throw in lots of shredded cheese. Batter complete.

3. Fish assumed to be soft and smelly by now. Cut in half(or can be full also) and put in batter. Leave for a moment and heat up oil in pan.

4. When oil is hot, take fish out from batter and fry in pan. Delicious smell comes out. Remove when in your opinion is cooked. Serve hot with chili sauce.

My bro and sis loved it! :)
An addition for my bro, i made ice-cream with melted tri-chocolate.. shall not post recipe coz not entirely sucessful tho bro claims he likes it!
Hence my sucessful cooking~

Flowers..

2006-11-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

These are my handiwork with the two pails of flowers my darling bought for me from cameron highlands! :)

Me and famm..

2006-11-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

Our toys.. rm10 for 3 cute magnet soft toys ;)

Us.. :)

My pretty gurl cuz.. bz studying the menu @ Winter Warmers, Curve

My handsome cuz also bz doing the same thing...

Modern granmom... bought me my first few halter necks ;)

Who's that baby?.. okok.. me when i dun wanna study.. jz lie on the bed.. haha

Me & Gang jz chillin out..

2006-11-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Me and Ken.. dun haf a pic wif another one of the 'girl gang' --> bex.. will wait..

Me and Su

Me and Eel

Boo Su.. Good friend for many years! Love to sleep at each other house & drink tea, wine, and eat chocolates.. yet she's not fat.. darned!

Ken the drifter.. Loves wine.. that cup he's
holding.. cognac + coke! ;)

Uni friends and pics...

2006-11-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

Kitty cat and Kev.. testing my new phone at that point of time.. the clarity.. hehe...

Dutted, a good friend of mine.. met at the monash orientation bash and our friendship simply blossomed.. awesome ;)
This was at Manhattan Fish market at pyramid on his bday! :)

Me, friends and commitee @ MUSA street party.. It was a sucessful business night for us despite the rain! Profits were in the high hundreds! Hiring us for the apprenctice mr trump? ;)
We had a fish game (main attraction),candle game,satay and hotdogs..

This is my super cool study partner and good friend.. whom i am going to miss terribly when she goes to aussie.. *sniifff...

Sue and I rushing like mad for an assgmt which we were for once late! We wrote so much on that day, it felt like the pen was a part of our body! hahaha

Kuantan..

2006-11-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hey peepy bozos, me backzzz from me kuantan trip d.. just a short and sweet one.. 3days2nite@swiss garden,berserah...

day1 - arrived in kuantan within 2 hours.. hunted for hotel, it was pretty out of the way.. managed to find it.. checked in.. starving.. but just rested and watched tv.. finished an interesting show.. went for a walk at the beach ( in replace of my usual 5km walk but we din walk 5km because darling sked rain la.. water and crab run up his leg lah.. haha) i managed to find some really nice, big seashells.. not the white common small ones.. BUT we left it in the hotel.. forgot.. *sniff.. anyway it was a really refreshing and romantic walk... sigh... after that we went for dinner at Pak Su Seafood.. the kam heong crab was killer!! damn nice! but the prawns not so nice (butter).. and the garoupa and siew pak choy was normal nice.. but guess what! it was soo dark!! hahaha.. this restaurant was by the seaside and it did not have electricity that night! so 'candlelight' dinner.. but still got customers.. haha! after that we went to catch 'flushed away' at berjaya megamall.. also managed to shop for some working shoes but did not buy any yet.. and eat my famous amos finally! hehe then back to hotel to zzzz...

day2 - darling got a shocked of his life or rather 'scare of the day' when he woke up.. guess why.. coz the first thing is he saw his gf EMO! and it was like 'hey i only went to sleep and woke up.. wats so wrong abt that?'.. haha.. go figure..

anyway so we drove to cherating and ate at this roadside stall which was really nice! i had nasi goreng ikan masin with telur mata kerbau and he had mihun sup rusa.. nyam nyam.. really good food.. and then we watched tv there too because there was this interesting malay show that the owners that were watching.. yes tv addict holiday.. haha.. never watched so much tv before (it'll unravel as i go along).. so went off after a while.. we found this beach resort place near club med.. the road was cool! like 'offroad' style u know.. and then we came to this quiet place.. WHOA! the view.. no words or picture can describe.. really nice.. blue seas white sands.. willow trees.. and for the first time i came across a hammock tied in between two trees.. my my.. i just had to try it! i slept on it.. wow i did not want to get up.. just swaying in the wind.. then the sun got in my face! so i got up.. went to sit on other wood benches and jz stare and stare at the beautiful sea.. darling and i took some pics (but cam spoiled. when ok will upload it).. after that he went to sleep in the hammock.. damn nice right dear? hehe..

darling was in an adventerous mood.. so we drove on.. towards terengganu... aiming for awana kijal, one of the nicest hotel that has left an impression on me from many years back.. so we found our way there and had a drink there.. my baby was so generous and sweet.. i mean hey taking ur gf for tea at a hotel ;) it was very nicely decorated in a tropical theme, it was like having tea within the forest and u can hear the water swishing away.. sigh.. no pics tho because by then camera conked ;( i had this rm16 drink called creamsicle.. nyam nyam.. like medicine but i like.. its orange with vanilla powder and soda.. he had a kiwi pastry and peppermint tea.. after that we walked down to the beach ( yes i love beaches A LOT!) and we jz sat there.. gazing at the blue sea and blue skies.. enjoying the sea breeze.. sigh... it was nicer than the earlier beach but both very peaceful.. we watched ppl playing kites, heard ppl playing drums.. and he jz holding me in his arms while we gazed at the beauty of nature around us and appreciating each other.. can i ask for more? =)

after that i wanted to take him to see my usual hangout - teluk chempedak beach so we drove back to kuantan and stopped halfway for keropok lekor.. so fat!! so worth it! rm1 for 5.. in kl about that price, but size comparison, in kl they are ripping us off! anyway.. after that i took over the wheel... we arrived very late back because of a jam caused by roadworks.. by the time we reached chempedak, too dark to appreciate it.. so then i took him to terminal satay zul - best satay in town i shud think.. we ate 10chicken, 5beef, 5mutton.. the beef and mutton so tough.. the ketupat was weird but still nice.. after that brought him to my granmom's apartment area where they have a mini bukit bintang... walked around.. bought lingeries(me) and pants(him).. almost bought an enid blyton book.. waiting in line to pay but then realised i read it before.. haha.. so did not buy.. shud have the other one.. rm 9.90 still got 30% off! damnit! anyway... erm after that went straight back to hotel.. so tired.. darling suddenly not tired wanted to go back to cherating..

anyway we went back to hotel and showered and watched tv together.. so romantic right.. we watched travel and living top ten hotels in USA.. darn nice the hotels!! the best one was the four season hotel in hualalai or sumting like that.. hahaha.. i like to say it as hualalalaa.. hahahahahah.. okok.. anyway then there's this hotel specially for couples.. damn nice... they set the bath for u and then put rose petals in it.. the bed also got.. then there's this hotel with NINE swimming pools.. very nice! baby said i wud have loved it.. ;) most of the hotels featured have their own built in lagoons whereby there are bottleneck dolphins!! soo coooll!!! and then got rare animals also all for you to see and touch!! i want i want i want!!! ... zzzzz....

day3 - woke up.. checked out by 12pm for once! hahaa.. it was such a nice feeling.. not having to pay anything.. jz hey here's the key. and they said ok thats all.. bye... hahaha.. the room was upgraded as well... so niceee...
well then i took baby to eat at the famous curry mee near chempedak.. he still liked ss2 one better tho.. i enjoyed the curry.. after that we went for a one hour very successful shopping at megamall.. remember that shoe i saw in day1? decided to get it for work in spore (yea i am outta working and sharp pointy shoes).. so baby was soo generous and sweet! he BOUGHT me THREE pairs of shoes.. all expensive!! i really appreciate that!! i looked around the shop again to see if there was anything else and i saw a shoe that was just so perfect! it was grey,classy and very sexy! baby loved it too! i tried it.. we're buying this! haha.. it was rm 59.90 and they had this promo whereby buy rm60 get a ltd ed purse.. they wouldn't let us get it jz because of the 10cents diff! so mean! so darling said in that case, we'll get something else... so we ended up buying the shoe i originally wanted.. it was rm 79.90 BUT buy 1 free 1! =) BUT they said can't count it in because already promo so can't get the purse.. SO MEAN! This is the VISS brand shop! horrid people.. but dear said buy it anyway... so that's how i ended up with 3 pairs of expensive shoes.. sigh.. now i dun have to shop for shoes anymore! good! i only have to get clothes... that's a lot down.. haha...

well then i drove back to kl... until the karak toll.. and then baby took over... he din let me drive to kuantan.. i was soooo emo with him! because it would have meant a lot to me!! i was hurt that he din get that.. but no one ever gets that.. but i'm not mad with him anymore... its okay.. i guess only i will know what driving there would ever mean to me.. my parents never get it as well... *sniff...

so it was a good, short and refreshing holiday... only drawback was that i couldn't swim or play water!! :( because i had my period.. so bloody annoying! anyway its not suppose to come for the sarawak trip!! so then i am going to swim like nobody's business man!! can't wait~

Him and Her

2006-11-12T11:29:00.000+08:00

Were we overseas? Cool backdrop eh ;) At secret recipe in centrepoint.. =)

Darling and I at Berjaya Times Square jz
spending time together walking around.

This was on his bday at San Fransicso Steakhouse (23/10/06).

Darling and I at Manhattan Fish market ' Day out with my bro' ---> there's the yoyo boy ;)

Darling and I at Bukit Tinggi for one of our day trips =)
Isn't he just gorgeous..

What's cooking... ?

2006-11-12T11:12:00.000+08:00

I've had desires to cook.. something like on a daily basis.. yet i can't bring myself to start.. feel so lazy.. just want to do nothing.. i finished one of my story books... got tons of archie's more to go.. yay..

So i've been looking for recipes.. my sis said my chinese crispy fish was very nice (cooked w su) so i took a look at the recipe again and was considering it.. but it suddenly look much harder.. hahaha..

Found other recipes for miso soup, spaghetti bolog, famous amos, szehuan veg soup and spicy fried chicken..
But what i was really looking for amongst those, was the clear tomato carrot soup which has pepper grounds in it.. anyone know what i am talking about? i heard that maids learn this soup at their agency and its called ABC soup or something coz its really easy to make.. let me know if you know..

I was also looking for something nice to eat and cook that's not fried.. the above mentioned (aside from soup) are essentially fried.. and shallots are chopped up garlic issit? i forgot.. haha..

and anyone know where i can get dashi? - japanese soup stock? Jusco probably right? i know i can make it.. but u know.. lazzzeeee... haha

Aiyah.. feel so lazy lah.. wanna bumming only... how lah.. i need to cook.. need to cook...
should i ? should i not?
gee...

Attempt Bullshark 4

2006-11-12T11:05:00.000+08:00

Bullshark 4 was mean, bad, horrible and violent! It simply ripped me apart. Took my heart out with its bare fins. Chewed my organs one by one.. till there's nothing left of me.. *sniff...

Okok.. sorry for the violence.. it sucked.. that's it.. nothing more i want to say.. so dun ask..

End of bullshark saga..

Attempt Bullshark 3

2006-11-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hello people..

Today was attempt bullshark 3.. how to manage the accounting systems for the sharks so that they stay rich and fat by playing around with their costs effectively.. I even asked the bullshark to take a look at the See Hoy Chan and Sunway grooup! bwahahahaha... anyway it did not turn out as deadly as i was so scared it was going to..

Attempt bullshark 2!

2006-11-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

Alrite here's the low down.. I shall be a big girl and let bygones be bygones.. and hence continue the conquest with strings attached.. so there..

Anyway, today no bringggg bringg... actually got lah.. but the ignorable one because task was set for noon..

Yesterday studying the bullshark till 2am and then drove home.. scary but was fun because the road was mine! MINE! hehehe... 7 minutes!! And wasn't even going at 100mph.. maybe for a super short run.. otherwise.. 90? hehe..

Oppss.. suppose to be telling about law bullshark.. btw the first bullshark was treasure hunting in sea infested waters.. today is law of the waters.. who may i sue in case a bullshark turns on me? - Captain Jack Sparrow! Muahahaha... okok..

So on with today..rushing to shark tank.. called satay a gazilion times but fone off.. finally spotted her still looking at sharks minutes to the task.. anoyed at her! and the she apolo so ok after that.. chomp sandwich because today's bullshark has a reputation for sucking your brain dry..

Then as usual, upon reaching bullshark tank, look for assigned station and settled in with weapons in hands.. yes this bullshark is so tough you're allowed to bring in weapons.. dun worry.. no animal abuse here.. however there was and is and always will be human abuse in this tanks! sigh..

Get set.. ready... GOoooo!! CHecked out all four sharks... Whoa!! WANTED to run run run... But no.. bullsharks here i come! After a bit of warming up, i got the hang of it... And my preparing and customising my weapons with satay till 2am - saVed my.. ok nvm.. Saved me.. In fact was enjoying myself at the end... But most likely is just the thrill of pressure! Muahahaha.... Was not too bad...God blessed me very much for this bullshark! As i hunted for appropriate weapons, after a prayer, I found just the right one! Gee thanx!
But this is not how He always works :) Dun let that mislead u!

Well attempt seemed okay... Was starving after that but darling was bz...
So went to see lecturer.. Confirmed myself and satay for an all-expenses paid trip to penang!! :) OKok.. actually the catch is u have to attend a seminar.. but satay said that it would be good if we could do this together.. u know.. that'll be one of the few last oppurtunities for us to spend time together.. *sniff sniff... *sad puppy look... she's swimming away.. to handle foreign bullsharks.. all the best monkey! dun ferget poor ol' me here.. having to make notes meself.. study meself... motivate meself... *tears brimming.. ok better stop here...ok jz one more.. stay up and do assgmt meself.. and eat all that garlic bread meself.. *waaHaaaaHaaaaaa... see i told u shud have stopped there!

After all the drama...Came home and went for 5km walk.. and guess what i saw!! I saw it LIVE! Not even on animal planet! It was live! I saw monkeys making love!! Heh heh heh.. Spetacular yet gross... hehehe But it was also cute because they were so small... No wonder there are so many baby monkeys around there... u know the ones running towards me and my sis? ring a bell? hahahahaha.....

Now i feel so sleepy... I might jz sleep early... SO much for harbouring intentions to study tonite... Geezz..

Tatabie..

Missing something?

2006-11-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

Okay.. i know something's missing..
Sooner or later.. perhaps this entire board will be missing..

Just when i thought one could utilise the 'freedom of speech' and 'being yourself', i once again proved myself right..
There never is a safe avenue...

I shall refrain from further comments because anything i want to say at this point would probably result in further nonsense...

The END.

Attempt Bullshark 1

2006-10-31T14:10:00.000+08:00

The day begins with 'bringgggg brinnnggggg'.. so loud.. almost went deaf.. wats that? oh right my alarm! right today's the day i begin manning my bullsharks!! woo hoo... yeah right.. purposely put alarm so loud because ever since no more classes, i absolutely cannot wake up before the 10am sun... sigh.. so scared.. so loud alarm and anoying sis woke me up.. she was only anoying because she turned on the light! bozo!

The one thing (i mean one of the few) u wrong me by, u'll be freaking dead, is waking me up harshly or using shock/'force' methods! Ask darling.. my gosh did he get it! He din on the light, but he did wake me from the bed by making me sit up! I was so black face the whole half day.. even his friends were scared... never, i REPEAT never force me to wake up..

i need to be aroused gently from sleep, step by step... unless... u want to get it! bwahahaha.. dunno why i like that lah.. another living eg, there was this guy from my past (D) he was so anoying love to call me gazzillion times within the hour! One morning he called around 9am, was sleeping but i did pick the fone up, and was anoyed, said i'm sleeping talk to u later.. Not even 10 mins passed, he called again, ok so i screamed abit louder... and he hung up.. then he called again! said because he miss me! guess what! i SCREAMED the whole house (maybe even neighbourhood) down and scolded him like nobody's business and slammed the phone hard... it was VERY silent after that.. and i got my beauty sleep... :) A girl get what she wants ;)

Anyway back to the present, where life is more serious and less funny, after waking up and waiting for princess jan to finally make her way over.. i arrived at bullshark tank.. nobody check my ID today.. as if they dare! I'm about to man sharks here hallo! Ok anyway found the right tank and the right station to begin the process...
WHOA~ this bullshark is really bullshit wei! Nvr seen such a crappy bullshark before despite practicing with FIVE bullsharks... It was tough (i proudly own up) and i've got lots of unexpected bites and attacks.. sniff sniff...

There goes my first bullshark.. three more to go.. pweez dun bite me :(

Chugging choo choo train

2006-10-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

Dear Bozos,

My exam starts next tuesday...yet here is a simple account of my day..

Wake up at 10am, got out of bed at 11am..
Had pear for breakfast after fighting with myself because i really wanted to eat the nasi lemakss which was sitting right in front of me..

Then proceeded to make a birthday gift (fantastic timing to suddenly start my creative juices huh! ) and was hoping to start studying by 12pm.. that was about 11.20am...

About 12.30pm, still not done.. darling called, 'quick lunch baby?'.. in my mind, quick = 30-45 minutes... picked me up in 2 minutes...

Went to kenny rogers.. after that go see doggies... then see puzzles.. then home... WHOA! U MEAN ITS 230PM OREDI?! DAMNIT!

Quickly proceeded to finish gift... Gift finished closed to 4pm.. very proud of myself.. wish to keep the gift to myself... too bad.. giving it away ANYWAY... hopefully.. hahaha..

Immediately proceeded to study law.. read.. variations of class rights.. s65 says that preference shareholders rights are only varied when their strict legal rights are affected... bla bla shares.. bla bla court sueing so and so.. case bla bla...

Then i started pressing my nose, playing my hair, looking at my beautiful fingernails.. not happy.. walked to the mirror looked at my face.. TOO MANY polka dots.. some wun go away for a long long time.. got irritated... went to sit down continue reading... hair got irritating... felt like washing it (just washed only) but no must study... thinking about hair, nose, hair, nose... ARRGGHHHHH brain jam! SCREW it!!
Went to sleep!! .. 530pm..

6pm, sister pokes head into room.. 'so are we going for that walk YOU said?' I turned... ear hurts coz wrong angle when sleeping.. ok u decide.. she said ok.. so we went to the hill (my choice) which leads me to the next story...

title: drama at the hill...

Walking down the steepest hill, enjoying myself after climbing up.. suddenly felt raindrops.. chicken sis..and me too lah.. said turn back going to rain.. okay.. walk more down.. then turned back.. stupid move...
climb like hell again! stop to rest.. continue climbing.. then suddenly i saw a log..
at least i thought it was a log.. i tot i was too tired because the log was moving left and right...and SUDDENLY snakkeeeee!!!!!! ... Well i din scream.. but i gripped my sis and told her not to scream... she tot there was a monkey (gee how small do u think i am! haha )
so suddenly she saw the snake's tail!! OH NOOOOOOO... i said dun scream...
HAHA.. walking further on..
It started to pour already.. so both of us were like ' HAH told u ! '..
and then the monkeys started running towards us!!!
GRIp each other! Telling her dun run, dun run, dunnn runnn.....

The monkeys were still running towards us... crappe...
Look at the monkey, hold each other tight, and wa lah! we made it safely past them... hahaha..
honey please ask your friends to stay away when ur not around ok.. muaks.. hehehe...

So then home at 715pm.. Negotiate with dad because want to go out at 11pm ( yes i know exam coming, but then birthday wor.. good friend summore... su u better appreciate every minute i am with u ! *scowls)
Got green light.. too green.. he said no need to come home.. too dangerous.. hahaha.. so see how lah...
dun worry i am coming home to study tmr!

And then blog blog blog.. now oredi 7.48pm... mati lah.. better go...
Near future plans,

Showered and smelling good by 810pm latest..
At desk with dinner ( frozen mango yoghurt) and law book by 8.15pm..
Out by 11pm..
Home by.. still tentative..
Hehehe....

That's all folks! *Disney music plays.. and Lion Roars
Bwahahahhaha

Dinnerss...

2006-10-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

Just got back from yummy steamboat with my darling! It was raining so it was nice to eat hot steaming stuff in the midst of the cold rain! ;) Not to mention romantic ;) Muaks.. love you baby!

Here's how we ended up having dinner together a week before my exams..

We went for a walk in the park and ended up sitting at our usual favourite spot overlooking the large and spacious sky and the water fountain and kids playing. He did want to go for dinner, but being a good girl, i thought i'd eat with my parents since its been ages! However when i got home, dad said he and mom has eaten.. So ring ring 'dear come pick me up for dinner!'..hehe so that's how it went...

Yesterday he went to Kuala Selangor for a church camp because his parents wanted him to.. I missed him like mad !! It seemingly makes a difference when the one you love is here (but still not next to you physically) and when he is far far away... logically it should not make any difference because after all you're both still not together.. but for some reason it always does...
geez... wonder how lah when i go to s'pore for TWO months... crappss

Well before that we went to his friend's house at ermm.. Bangsar for Raya... WHOA... the food was soo nice... if only we both weren't on diet! But i dun care... I ate tons and tons of ketupat (my fav) and.. oh well the rest is according to diet.. there was chicken and beef rendang and nice cute small tiny chocolate cakes and tarts! yummy! hahaha.. and i took Archie comics from his friend !! Okay maybe borrowed is more correct! hehehee.. it was not too bad hanging out with his friends, quite comfortable.. but the topic ranges from work to marriage... its normal actually until it comes to marriage.. then u know... u get the looks from him...

moving on..oopss i mean backwards..sorry lah..reverse chrono today...
IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY !!!!
Back to normal chrono..

Left Uni at 4pm.. already late because card havent done final touch ups and gift not wrapped... and still needed to shower.. Dinner was at 730pm (reservation time at least)...

So rushed home - mom asked why are you walking so fast? -- me already late late late!
Showered like mad, got dressed in my velvet tube,jeans and threw on the green shawl pressie from reg and chucked everything necessary for wrapping and touching up the card - wrapping paper, cello tape, scissors, hole puncher, ribbon.. ok check move into car... oopss forgot the camera..

Here's where my F1 skills come into play, 435pm left the house.. arrived at OU and PARKED on a public holiday, before 5 pm! My make-up appointment was at 5pm and the last time i was late for my facial, so this time did not want to be late. Reached Clinique, bumped into some Monashians doing make up too! But theirs was for fun and no offense but their make up was bad! I was quite worried mine was going to turn out like i didn't have make up on.. Just powder.. So i specifically stated out how i wanted my make up to be - sexy, classy, and not too heavy.. and WA LAH! I got what i wanted!! ;) Very sexy! Josh loved it! Didnt you baby =) Ohh and clinique personnel wrapped the gift for me while i was having it done ... so sweett ... ;)

After my make up i intended to shop for a cake, touch up the card, and wrap the gift and also if got time drop by GSC Gold Class and see what's on. Beep Beep .. sms from HIM, darling where are you? i am in mph OU~me? so dead ! what the heck he doing here! so i did not carry out any of my intentions in OU.. Quick drastic change of plans after failure to lure him away from OU to home! After make up, rush to car hopefully not seen by him, and success! went to ttdi to hunt for cake... only secret recipe was open.. sigh.. choose the most non-fattening cakes.. and telling the silly ppl how to write 'i love you' in what angle.. they still got it wrong anyway... sakaiss...touched up the card there too.. Josh called 7 times... did not hear at first.. later tried hard not to pick up until i cudnt' avoid it... screwed the convo up and he figured out wats going on.. too bad... still following plan A...

Drove over to dinner destination - San Francisco Steakhouse... Planted the gift, card and cake there.. Left instructions.. Went to pick the birthday baby...
Arrived at restaurant.. the blur nut din even know it was his present on the table! Thought the waiter haven't cleared rubbish... ouch! all that for nothing? Proceeded to order dinner, took pictures and just pak toh and ate dinner..... Suddenly! Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to joshua.. happy birthday to you! The manager and one or two staff was singing him a song with the lit- cake! i was like WHOA! i didn't plan that one!! hahahaah.. but it was great.. :) Also they re-did the writing on the cakes according to what I originally wanted!! Smart people! ;) Although, isn't that vandalism of my stuff? I din ask them too.. but nervetheless thankful :)

He opened his HUSH PUPPIES shoe in the car..and he loved it! YAY! He din really like the cakes i chose! I knew i should have gone the with the CHEESE cakes! Hahaha...well he's the one 'fat and oil' concious...

We finished dinner early, so proceeded to OU to catch a movie.. 'Open Season' was playing at Gold Class, he wanted to watch Stormbreaker, Ok so we watched that in the normal cinema.. It was a good show! Not bad :) Something like Agent Cody but better a bit i think.. =)

After that dropped him home... But it was only 1130pm, so half an hour left to the end of his birthday, we decided to spend it together.. parked the car under a very nice willowish tree and just enjoyed the moment being romantic..
said sweet nothings to each other.. hug... butterfly kisses here and there.. hold hands.. and just be with each other.. sigh we were so contented and happy just to be with each other..
clock strikes 12 and cinderella has to go home...

It was a successful night :)

Sunday

2006-10-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

Today was horrible and not so horrible.

Morning din start out to good. Ended up making darling angry AGAIN..sigh..
Then emo lah the whole day...

While emo-ing got study lah..to take my mind of things...
studying was actually good today..understood almost everything and things like that.. felt closer to a HD...haha not HD but its moving lah...

day dream a lot too.... some horrible some nice..
hate the horrible ones...

not so good mood again now... geez man...

Singapore

2006-10-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

Internship?Singapore?EY? Whoa! Shocked to my shell! I am suppose to be jumping for joy and be estaticly happy for being able to land what was perceived to be difficult, at least *ahem* at student level. I know all those working peeps out there will be like, 'aiyah so what! intern only mah!' haha oh well it all always boils down to people's perception which is highly influenced at the level of life they are in. But i was euphoric for only a fleeting moment, then i realise, what about my forensic offer? Choices choices..and once again, i stand to suffer equal losses..Am i always going to have to go thru this? I am complaning yet I cannot be more grateful God chooses to bless me with such good oppurtunities! Ironies and woes of an immortal.

Darling does not seem to have a good impression of S. Seemingly the people there only care for their work and not abt human relations. The image they have always protrayed to the world - 'kiasu'..now there's even 'kiasi' ..haha..but its not funny when you are in it i suppose. Of course i was hoping darling was giving me an overestimate so that i wun actually be too dissapointed, but now looking at it, I think he was not. He shud have! darned! haha.. anyway..
I've had to the call the office for various reasons, and the twice i called only served to prove darling right! So i am scared.

The impression i got was that they don't have much time to attend to you nor do they care. When i was informing them that so and so document will be arriving when, they go 'hmm hmm', more like 'so why are u telling me this?'..yet at the end of the phone call, their 'bye' greeting was almost friendly..So i came to the conclusion that they are actually ok people, jz kiasu! hahaha..meaning they want to be nice but they hold back..their work comes first..the saddest thing, the malaysian friendliness that we all seem to have, is sooo lacking in them..not that its a bad things, see how one perceives it.

My apprehensiveness (rkboo, 2006) comes in because is it really going to be like that for the whole 2 months down there? Everyday i go to work, no smiles perhaps no hellos. Jz do your work, if you dunno, ask but they will only answer if they are 'not too bz' or if they feel like it. What am i going to learn out of it at all? Sigh. Best part, can't enjoy with ur workmates. Workmates are workmates and playmates are playmates. The world is so boring and catgorised. When will they learn to mix?

At the end of the day, I still decided to take up that offer. Mom was no no dad was yes yes. Haha. My reasons? International exposure, something and somewhere different. I however am anticipating a really bad time (maybe i shudnt be so narrow minded huh) and while people think that i might enjoy myself, have a good time and learn a lot, inside of me somehow can't find it to agree with them. I only hope that I would be wrong.

Wasted Beach Whale

2006-10-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

I feel like an absolutely wasted beach whale. I can't study and better still i can't sleep! What better torture could i possibly be facing only days towards manning the bull sharks. Bloody hell!

Had an anoying start today, though was trying hard to overcome it. 2nd milestone lunch was supposed to happen but did not, many thanx and tribute to the law bull shark.His mom cooked an absolutely beautiful lunch so he said and i wasnt there to eat it! darn crappe..bestest part was he only told them am not coming after the cooking was done..geez..can u imagine how 'great' i feel abt things now..i shall not even start on the impression i have thus made..

All morning through some presidential meeting with monash officers and thru the law bull shark class, was trying really hard not to feel dragged down by the fact i couldnt attend lunch.i know it wasn't everything, yet somehow i felt if its not today, its pretty much never and it wasn't too easy to reach this point either.

I felt that life was mean! Whichever decision i made-skip lunch, go for law bull shark OR skip law bull shark and go for lunch, would result in me making significant losses. If i chose second option, my results would ultimately suffer hell because as it is things are really really bad acedemically.I've never EVER been in such DIRE STATE before.Am even skipping study groups which i use to initiate.this is total crappo shit man!tmr i mz make sure i see my study partner, ms satay...oopss..

If i chose the first option,well i would be where i am now..feeling absolutely 'great and fantastic, nvr felt better' abt the fact that i was expected at lunch which was carefully prepared in anticipation of my showing up, which i ultimately did not. thats gotta like be the bestest thing i've ever done.

well so there...what a beautiful day...cuckoobird!

SHE

2006-10-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

There is a princess who lives in a magical kingdom far far away. That kingdom was bestowed to her by her loving father so that she could have just about anything she wanted and do anything she wishes within it without constraint. Upon receiving the lavish gift, she turned it into a homey kingdom where there were cottages with all sorts of nice people leaving in it - families, couples, singles. Furry animals were free to roam about and were well behaved though at some point, cheeky. There were no insects, mosquitos or horrible icky reptiles. The only sort of reptiles were beautiful, peaceful fishes in the sea as well as mermaids and mermans. There were greeneries all around, such as carpet grass, oak trees, rows of lilies and tulips and more.

Her own palace, which was always open to visitors, had the sea as its backyard and the perfect view of her kingdom from atop the majestic hill as her frontyard. The receiving room had a cosy fireplace and tea sets scattered around always ready for visitors. The library which had all sorts of comfy chairs and sofas and heavy carpet was also filled with her favourite books, which ranges from enid blyton right up to sidney sheldon. Her dining hall fit for a royal banquet which would hold all the kings and queens from all over the world was what brought the meaning of 'fine dining' more to life than anything else. Her chamber was the cosiest of all the rooms in her palace. The walls were painted in soft peach with hints of shades of lilac flowers. There were glow in the dark galaxy specially designed by the Prince of Arabia just for her and it looked as if she had the universe right above her. She has a fireplace, though smaller than the one in the receiving room, just as cosy. On her mantlepiece were pictures of her family, pets and her hearthrob, the Prince of Persia.

Her bed was covered in plush satin and draped with heavy velvety covers. Her pillows were that of the softest feathers yet firm, compliments from the King of Utopia who wishes her a good night rest for the rest of her life. Also decorating her bed were soft toys of all kinds from her many suitors from near and far. To the right of her bed, is a balcony that overlooks the sea which simply glitters on the nights of full moon. It is a view that also encompasses her swimming pool and palm trees surrounding the area. To her right, is her bathroom which all girls would love to have. It has a hot water jacuzzi, exlcusive marble bathing area, a large and spacious sink and the toilet bowl has seashells inside its seat. The lighting is also very bright but can be set lower for a romantic mood. There is also a sofa and a walk-in closet, which needless to say contains all her beautiful evening gowns, silk & satin lingeries and many more.

Of course she does not maintain all of this by herself, she has her loyal subjects and maids to see to her needs and ensure the upkeeping of her palace. One thing to note is that, in her kingdom, magic is only used when necessary, hence the cleaning and the cooking has to be done normally, yet of course sometimes there would be cheeky times. But she is a kind ruler and would take it in her stride.

Speaking of ruler, she rules her kingdom peacefully yet firmly. All her people love and respect her, and her maids and subjects are very loyal to her. Her mannerisms and conduct are well known by kingdoms near and far.

Her life seems perfect does it not, however as magical as she is, she goes through the same ups and downs as we mortals do. To begin with, she had a rough day followed by a rough night. She woke up alright, with her favourite shih-tzu sleeping peacefully by her. She then took a leisurely shower in her spacious bathroom which has an open, non-grilled window overlooking her lush green meadows. The sunlight rays pierced through the morning air, sunnying up the bathroom.
As she was gently soaping herself, she was planning her day out yet amongst the busy-ness that it portrayed to be, she can't help but miss her prince terribly and was wondering if they might see each other that day.

She then dressed in her favourite garfield t-shirt and khaki 3-quarters as that day she was not going to go anywhere or meet any royalties. It was going to be a home-day ie palace-day for her. She proceeded for breakfast of gsrlic toast and peach tea then headed straight for her work room. There she begin her work for the day. After many hours, she decided to take a break and played with her shih-tzu and took her for a short walk within the palace gardens which was shaded by the many oak trees, skillfully and strategically planted by her experienced gardener, Mr Smith. That was entailed by a light lunch prepared by her cook, Ms White, whom was this fat, jolly, motherly lady. Most times she made up for the mother the princess never had the chance to know. Her own mother was always too busy with her own life and running her own kingdom.

Prince of Persia called her sometime in the late afternoon while she was busy attending to matters concerning a meeting she needed to hold in a few days time, the conversation went as below:

Prince Edward: My darling Anneliese, how are you doing? Had you had something to eat?
Princess Anneliese: Yes my dear. I had. How about you? Not just sandwiches again i hope!U're becoming thinner than me, which is unacceptable!
E: No my dear, my mother made me lamb steak and potatoes for lunch today.
A: Ahh that's nice!
E: How's your little white beast doing?
A: WHITE BEAST? HOW DARE U ADDRESS MILLY THAT WAY!!
E: Oh am sorry! I only meant it lightly. Why are you so worked up?
A: U know how much i love that dog and what she means to me! How dare you belittle her!
I shall not want to speak with you anymore.
E:But...
A:Goodbye!

A small light not-thought-through joke has ended up in a tiff, and the princess did not end up conveying to him her feelings in the morning which only serve to grow throughout the day, wrenching her heart each hour as it passes. It is painful to miss someone and not being able to see them or be with them simply because of an unnecessary tiff, add on to the fact that it was a tiring day because of the workload. When dressing for dinner, she was in such a bad mood, she tore her favourite evening dress which was a present from her prince for her last birthday. She was even more upset then because she knew when the prince eventually found out about it, there would be another argument. The prince had attempted to call her back to apologise over the next few hours, but she would not hear of it. She was just too sad, all the more because they were not to see each other that day. To ease her sorrows, she went skinny dipping in her pool. Her maids were around and tried to cheer her up, but she just swam and swam till she was tired. After a quick shower, she curled up in her bed and cried herself to sleep.

Her only wish was that the prince would have tried to understand her more and perhaps try a little harder to cheer her up but then again, perhaps he was not aware of the true situation or he is not as patient as he used to be.

Lantern night

2006-10-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

He made it in the end for lantern night, at 1145pm! I was already abt to change into my satin pajamas and continue studying. But i was really happy he made it as that occasion meant someting to me tho am not a kid anymore. he accidently burnt a hole in my fish lantern and i burned down an entire lantern..hahaha.. we walked ard the neighbourhood and then back at my place we lit some candles on the window sills and wooden frame aquarium. it was very nice, but not overtly romantic as he was tired and it was hot.

Victoria Date (4/10/06) and McD breakfast date (6/10/06)

2006-10-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

On tuesday, my darling missed me so much and said we must for a date just to pak toh.
So he ask me out for wednesday and i said yes :)
He didn't tell me where we were going and it was a surprise (jz the way i like it ;) ) and he was soo nice he brought me to Victoria Station in Ampang (i think its Ampang) and we sat in the train. The last time we went there, he wanted to ask me to be his gf, but didnt! hahaha...chicken..hehe ok jk!

Well it was a beautiful date as usual. He ordered his favourite nachos and i ordered my favourite jacket potatoes. After that he had steak and i had king prawns (butterfried, but i think i like grilled better) and then we had this bombastic dessert that u flame with rum! hahaha...he copied ME and had starfruit juice..

We had a good dinner conversation going but i was sleepy after eating as usual...so it toned down..
but it was still fun... :)

As for today morning, we went to McD's for breakfast. It was so good and comfortable. We just chatted over breakfast, was telling him about my weird wedding dream and i invited him over for lantern tonite. Oh no i can't rmbr wat he was telling me! crap! anyway then he spilled hot coffee over his hand..ouch ouch...after we were done eating, we read the newspaper together..we found some cool houses then we might be going too look at..and then home it is for me and work it is for him :)

My first blog!

2006-10-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

Hey people, okay so this is my first blog. Still figuring out what's going on and how to use what.Sometime ago i typed a blog halfway and saved it as draft, but i can't seem to find it anywhere right now, so when i do, perhaps i will post it.

For starters, I'll blog abt today and it should be a short one. ;)

Today morning i went to renew my passport and dragged my ever faithful friend with me, Su. hehe...thanx for waking up su!! appreciate it and as promised, here is my blog! hahaha.... after she gasaked some of my dvds(all the good ones mind u !), then we left for the immigrations and reached around 725am, and guess what, as early as that may sounds, i was the 42nd person... dear su went to buy the form for me (its my first time doing this on my own, so she was kinda big mom) and she bought it at rm2..i was like whoa did u get cheated? haha...she got it from one of those touts as the gov calls it, because to get your number appearantly u have to have the form ready and the form office only opens at 8am or later abit...hence the 'worth it-ness' of paying rm2 for an rm1 form. Waited only for abt 25 mins, and got it done. The lady was pretty friendly, we were talking abt CLEO and why there were so many ppl around etc etc. Then waited for about 15 mins or so, paid the fees and left! All before 9am! SOoo nicee...

Had our favorite dish-prawn mee at yong len.Su is such a regular that she had all the 'lu ho bo' exchanges with the prawl lady..hahaha...after that bought newspaper(because my dad for some reason stopped the delivery and i felt like reading today.usually can get free from uni, but as it is my off day, hence so) and drop su off, and i think she took my sidney book with her.Must rmbr to ask her. Well upon arrival, i cleaned the house because you know with a little monstrous brat at home,the house is never clean. Then i did a bit of washing up and here i am blogging. Its nice to know that i've accomplished soooo many things and it is only what, 1230pm? wow...haha..my boyfriend said i should wake up at 7am everyday then! hahaha..no way not me...i love sleeping... =)

Milestone Dinner!

2006-09-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

1st Milestone Dinner...

Yesterday (22/9/06) Joshua and I had our first milestone dinner. It was my dearest sister's 17th birthday, and she invited her boyfriend, Tim Tom Cat and my darling, Josh to dinner with our family. Nevetherless we were very nervous when we asked our mom. I'm ever so thankful that I have a sister to this sorta stuff with, alone I doubt anything would have happened just yet. When we were asking our mom about this, I also took the oppurtunity to enlighten my mom about Josh and I and needless to say I had an earful for telling her so late, but she was okay about it. So far, at least. After all the "hu - ha" with my parents, I told Josh all about it and I don't think I've seen him quite so nervous before. Hahaha. The stakes were upped during the day of the dinner as my mom invited my grandmum too!

Dinner was to be at 730pm at Marche, The Curve, however my dad,granmom and I were extremely late. My dad and I went to pick her up from SS2 and it took one hour just to go and come back with all that jam! The rest of the party namely my mom,sis,bro,Josh and Tim were already waiting at home and all of us were a bit panicky as the reservation would be canceled within 15 mins and that was like 5 minutes more and we still werent at my place. When my dad finally arrived at my place, guess the sight i saw!! Hahaha..I doubt I've seen anything funnier just yet!! My mom was in my boyfriend's car at the backseat with her head poking out! hahahaha...
I tried really hard not to laugh all the way to Marche as it was seriously hillarious!

As it is Josh was already very very nervous, and he had to send my mom over too!!! Hahahaha...and my mom poking her head out asking me whether i wanted to exhange cars or not..haha i said no need...see you at marche! hahaha....poor darling...

We arrived at Marche.Dinner went successfully well with my granmom being so high and sabotaging my dear. She said he was a potato and then my mom was there saying 'no lah'...so there was this mini friendly argument going on. After dinner, back at my house for cake cutting where my granmom started claiming that Josh was her best friend! hahaha..who put rum in the that tiramisu! Thus the nite ended well! =)

merdeka!

2006-08-31T01:19:00.000+08:00

this is a new blog! watched fireworks!